Money...
it's the key to freedom-- and you don't realize it until you don't have any.
Just started my job at J Crew so hopefully things will turn around soon. But at the moment it feels like I'm just getting further into the hole- it really is a vicious circle.
Anyways enough of whining. Things will be okay, I'm sure-- I mean it really has to be I guess.
Not really sure where I was going with this post :-p actually... so I guess I'd better end it now.
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Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
"Life, Don't talk to me about life"-- Marvin the paranoid android
Life does not go according to plan
This is a tough thing for me to admit but given the events of the past month there is no point in denying it.
30 days ago I was planning to move up to Santa Cruz, CA to start my PhD. Alec and I were going to be living 3,000 mi apart and we had spent the entire summer fighting nay-sayers of this plan. It all seemed so right and yet it was SO wrong.
I'm a dedicated student and I never fail to impress those with whom I come into contact within an academic space. So why should I go to a program that only offers TWO courses during a quarter-neither of which apply to my sub-field? Why should I break my heart by moving away from Alec?
The answer became obvious-- I shouldn't.
It was the hardest choice I've ever had to make. I decided to move to Charlottesville, VA and take a year off between my MA and PhD. I have no regrets, I love every minute of it here aside from the looming threat of student loans, begging for hours at my new job, and plunging once more into the application abyss.
But I know it was the right choice.
I'm not sure what the future holds. But I know that pursuing something better is worth the uncertainty.
This is a tough thing for me to admit but given the events of the past month there is no point in denying it.
30 days ago I was planning to move up to Santa Cruz, CA to start my PhD. Alec and I were going to be living 3,000 mi apart and we had spent the entire summer fighting nay-sayers of this plan. It all seemed so right and yet it was SO wrong.
I'm a dedicated student and I never fail to impress those with whom I come into contact within an academic space. So why should I go to a program that only offers TWO courses during a quarter-neither of which apply to my sub-field? Why should I break my heart by moving away from Alec?
The answer became obvious-- I shouldn't.
It was the hardest choice I've ever had to make. I decided to move to Charlottesville, VA and take a year off between my MA and PhD. I have no regrets, I love every minute of it here aside from the looming threat of student loans, begging for hours at my new job, and plunging once more into the application abyss.
But I know it was the right choice.
I'm not sure what the future holds. But I know that pursuing something better is worth the uncertainty.
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